Dear Gabby
You were born on the 18th September 2012 at 16:35. You were only 21 weeks old and too young to survive on your own. You lived only for a few minutes and then you left this world to be with the Angels.
The nurse brought you to us to meet you and say goodbye.
You were so beautiful, your little tiny perfect body lay there wrapped in a white blanket. It almost looked like you were sleeping and that any minute you would take a deep breath an let out a cry to let us know that you are alive and well. But you didnt breathe, and you didnt move, you just layed their so peacefully like a beautiful picture forever etched in our minds and in our hearts.
Mom and Dad just stared endlessly at your perfect little body. Your beautiful little face, your perfect little lips. You looked just like your Dad. You had whisps of hair on your tiny little head. You had long little legs and it reminded me of how I felt you moving inside my tummy, must have been those long legs :-)
Your little hands had tiny little finger nails and your little toes had tiny little toe nails. They were so perfect, so beautiful.
We just held you,kissed you gently and touched your little cheeks and just took in the moment that wished would last forever. It was almost as if time was paused at that moment so that the image of you could be forever etched in our memory.
Only a few minutes later, we had to say goodbye as the nurse took you away. I sometimes wish that we held on longer, that we just lay next to you and took more in, I wish we gave your more kisses and more hugs before they took you away.
I really wish that your big sister Kayla could have had that same experience with you. She is so sad that she couldnt have held you, I am so sad too, I think she would have loved to just hold you in her arms and say goodbye. But she loves you so much and she knows that you are with her everyday.
Remembering that day now fills me with such mixed emotions. Alot of people say that you shouldnt see a baby that was no longer alive and that it is traumatic. I dont think so at all, it was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life and I am so glad that I got to see you, so that from now on I can look back and remember that small moment in time where I met you.
Right now I don't understand why this happened and why you had to leave us so soon, I can only look back to that moment and remember that perfect little angel that we held for a small moment in time and remember how perfect you were and how much we loved you.
I hope that in time we might get answers in both the physical world and the spiritual world and I hope that this tragedy can become a shining light and that we can continue to send out love into the world in your honour.
Love you forever
Mom
You were born on the 18th September 2012 at 16:35. You were only 21 weeks old and too young to survive on your own. You lived only for a few minutes and then you left this world to be with the Angels.
The nurse brought you to us to meet you and say goodbye.
You were so beautiful, your little tiny perfect body lay there wrapped in a white blanket. It almost looked like you were sleeping and that any minute you would take a deep breath an let out a cry to let us know that you are alive and well. But you didnt breathe, and you didnt move, you just layed their so peacefully like a beautiful picture forever etched in our minds and in our hearts.
Mom and Dad just stared endlessly at your perfect little body. Your beautiful little face, your perfect little lips. You looked just like your Dad. You had whisps of hair on your tiny little head. You had long little legs and it reminded me of how I felt you moving inside my tummy, must have been those long legs :-)
Your little hands had tiny little finger nails and your little toes had tiny little toe nails. They were so perfect, so beautiful.
We just held you,kissed you gently and touched your little cheeks and just took in the moment that wished would last forever. It was almost as if time was paused at that moment so that the image of you could be forever etched in our memory.
Only a few minutes later, we had to say goodbye as the nurse took you away. I sometimes wish that we held on longer, that we just lay next to you and took more in, I wish we gave your more kisses and more hugs before they took you away.
I really wish that your big sister Kayla could have had that same experience with you. She is so sad that she couldnt have held you, I am so sad too, I think she would have loved to just hold you in her arms and say goodbye. But she loves you so much and she knows that you are with her everyday.
Remembering that day now fills me with such mixed emotions. Alot of people say that you shouldnt see a baby that was no longer alive and that it is traumatic. I dont think so at all, it was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life and I am so glad that I got to see you, so that from now on I can look back and remember that small moment in time where I met you.
Right now I don't understand why this happened and why you had to leave us so soon, I can only look back to that moment and remember that perfect little angel that we held for a small moment in time and remember how perfect you were and how much we loved you.
I hope that in time we might get answers in both the physical world and the spiritual world and I hope that this tragedy can become a shining light and that we can continue to send out love into the world in your honour.
Love you forever
Mom
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